My original goal for writing “Sister’s Love” was to illustrate the complex emotions my older sister and I have shared with each other over the years. For the longest, I had muddled overwriting a poem that touched on our relationship because of how sensitive a topic it was for me. In the poem, I wanted the reader to have a first-hand encounter of my side of the relationship. How my sister changed from a childlike older sister whom I had grown up with. Into a stranger who indulged in drugs and other adult activities. I wanted the reader to treat that information the same way I had when I was first told. As time went on all this new-found information forced me to build walls up against her.

At the same time, I always hoped that we could go back to how things used to be. This only had made me miss her more and what we once had. The main feeling, I wanted to convey in the poem wasn’t so much my anger towards her but confusion and admiration. Confusion to show how throughout everything that we have gone through, how confused I was by how fast we had moved apart. Then admiration because in many ways I very much missed my sister.

The words I used throughout the piece were meant to reveal underlying emotions and tones of doubt, sarcasm, and a little bit pettiness. One of the words that revealed this was my use of the word fairy tales. “And the many stories you turned into fairy tales of how instead of a prince,

You wanted someone to care” (line 5-6). When that I first used this word, I was rethinking of everything she ever told me. It took on a different meaning, however, in no way was this word meant to be taken in the literal sense. When I was younger, she was a complainer who argued with my parents and had an excuse for just about everything. However, there were reasons within not my family for why she did so. At times she did, however, vent with my younger sisters and me. That’s why I called them fairy tales. I could never tell whether anything she told us was true. Some of the use of the word was just out of spite towards her.